When I got to work today I looked at the moon over the mountains and thought it was so pretty. So............. here is a picture from the parking lot at Lowes.

Today is the day I have to pay my rent. It seems very strange to me to be making a payment on a place I'm not buying. Renting is very foreign to me. I always thought with my house payment that my money was eventually going to get me something that would last, my home. Renting seems like my money is just going out there and not giving me anything permanent. I just have to realize how much better off I am right now and this isn't a permanent situation.

Fri, Sept 28th: Sadness. Today I had to turn on my heat during the day as it was pretty cool in my apartment. I'm just not ready for cold weather. I've enjoyed the summer weather too much.

Thurs, Sept 27: This tree outside of my apartment has been changing, not due to cold but dry. It is really pretty for a half and half tree.

OK. This is going to sound really strange, but sometimes I am strange:) Anyway, when I am getting ready in my bathroom and I notice that the floor needs a little sweep and I don't have time to get the broom out and sweep, I just grab my lint roller. Roll the floor and then toss the sheet. Too strange, I know, but effective!!

Today I went to get my hair re highlighted. I really needed it. I looked in the mirror at work yesterday and could see the roots with little white hairs mixed in. Ugh.... Anyway, the gal that did my hair before just had her baby yesterday and so I had Vanessa do my hair. Love it and she is a great person. Lot's of fun. It makes me feel so much better to have a good place to get my hair done. Hair is very important to a woman, right??

Yesterday my computer conked out before I got my post done so here it is a day late. I set up my mantle with my fall decorations. It is still 80 degrees outside but I really do like the beautiful colors of fall. My birth season and that of my girls.

Today really was a great day. All my kids came and we took a picnic to a little park about 2 blocks from my apartment. The little ones had a blast on the playground equipment and the adults just enjoyed talking to each other. My kids really are hysterical when they get together. Just makes me laugh and that felt really good. I love my kids and grandkids so much. They are all great people!!

To sleep, purchance to dream.... One of those days..... It would be great if I could snap my fingers and have a great new life. Today I've been thinking about why I have made such rotten choices in my life. Love. It has to do with just wanting to be loved, wanted and needed. Couldn't say no, try to be everything I think they want. Then sprinkle in tragic happenings and it makes for a crazy, messed up me. I have been through so much and keep trying to put one foot in front of the other. I'm tired, hopeless. I thought moving here in the middle of my kids would be fantastic but I see my kids less now than I did in Lyman. Right now I am left with no one. Trying to keep i together for Tony's sake. The reason I am writing like this is I don't believe anyone reads my post except one person. She will understand. How do I get over not searching for love, friendships and family? Now that is the question.

Woot, Woot... Hobby Lobby. Do I need to say more?? but I will....This Hobby Lobby is about 3 blocks from my apartment. I could spend so much money here if I let myself. But tolday I bought a little fall decoration, some thread and button. They have the cutest stuff.

Here is a nice little shot of my mail box. My box is 302 even though that isn't my apartment number. We have a different numbered box so if people are watching to see what apartment you live in, they can't tell by the box you get your mail in.

Yummy! Panera for lunch. Broccoli and cheddar soup in a bread bowl with a halloween cookie. Couldn't resist!!!

I think this is pretty amazing! I am still using the hot rollers I had in High School. How old are these things and they still work!! Pretty good Miss Clairol:)

I had to post a picture about my Nook. I love my Nook. I can't believe all the books I have downloaded and don't realize it until by credit card bill comes! Not only do I read all the time but I have some pretty fun games (Bubble Birds) on it too. I can also access the internet and check facebook, by blog and any other interesting things out there. Wow, what would I do without my Nook???

Today is a much better day, thank heavens! I got up, changed the sheets on my bed and then decided to go to Rocky Mountain National Park. It was beautiful. I only saw one herd of elk but there were too many cars around them so I kept going hoping that I would see more wildlife. Sadly I only saw a magpie. Oh, well. The leaves were changing, the air was clear and just warm enough. It was such a nice ride. On the way home I stopped at a little shop and bought chokecherry jelly and a wild blueberry pie. So much for the diet:)

Maybe you noticed that there was no blog for yesterday. I guess I have to admit that all my days are not sunshine and roses. Yesterday was one of those days that I thought it was better to knock myself out and sleep for most of the day rather than think very depressive thoughts and actions. Hopefully those days will become fewer as I progress on the road of recovery.

I did something today that I haven't done in a long time. I actually cooked something!! I remembered a great quiche that Marlys had made so I found a recipe that was kinda close and made it. Turned out pretty good if I do say so myself.

Can you imagine it? I now have to contend with traffic lights every day! Ken Pratt Blvd is one of the main streets in Longmont. I am just leaving work.

I am a member of the Left Hand Creek Ward. These are some of the nicest people! I take an extra long lunch and can make it to at least one meeting.

This is what Lowes looks like when I have to go to work. 4:00 comes awfully early!!

This is what happens when your plans don't work out :) I ended up going to the Scottish Festival in Estes Park and I found the Cummings Clan. Who knew??? I found the Mother Land! I saw the Air Force Rifle Drill Team, the Marine Corp Band played with the Bagpipers. I have to admit that they had tears streaming down my face. They played Amazing Grace and I just kept thinking of how much Gerry would love them! Then I shopped till I dropped. So fun!!!

I bought a bike... now what? I guess I could call this "The good, the bad and the ugly". The good thing is I got up on the bike first try. I haven't ridden a bike since Jr. High. A LONG time ago so i was very afraid that I would wobble around and then fall over. But I didn't!! Yea!! The bad---I only made it 3 blocks and I thought my upper thighs were going to cramp up and I had to stop and rest. How humiliating!! The ugly-- by the time I got home I thought I would throw up. Man, I am SO out of shape. Who knew???